A While

The word count never amounts to anything we ever want it to

The death toll’s only goal is to shed light on what the evil do

The moral decay of every day is likened to plain apathy

But I could care less about how any of this is affecting me

Sleep deprivation became a welcome sensation

Contemplation became just another mental vacation

Hesitation wouldn’t grow old and find itself in cessation

Starvation of a relation caused unwanted palpitations

It’s been a while since we didn’t defile

It’s been too long since we’ve been strong

It’s been a while since we’ve decided to smile

It’s finally over now that she’s come along

Foot to the floor to try and make it to that next door

Open it up to find there’s more shit to shut up

Buried and gone but still we can’t find the dawn

Gimme a bottle of that stuff ‘cuz enough’s enough

Shit-faced and wasted off the sweetest thing we’ve ever tasted

Glued to the phone for fear we’ll find the evening alone

Damaged, abused, fucked up, and confused

Fear for 5 years never finding our muse

It’s been a while since I’ve wanted so much to smile

It’s been too long since I’ve been strong

It’s been countless days since I’ve felt this way

It’s finally over now that she’s come along

I run to the one who keeps me from coming undone

I race to the face that takes me away from this place

I’m riled by her style that won’t let me not smile

I’m sure now that you can see how she’s affecting me

Sleep deprivation becomes a necessary norm

Hesitation help me. As I fall for her form

Contemplation’s out the window until further notice

Starvation for more time to enjoy her kiss

It’s been a while since I’ve tried this hard not to smile

And I can’t say there’s ever been a better view

There’ve been too many days I’ve wanted to be this way

And for all of this joy I can blame only you

Soul Long

This world’s taking off; about time I joined in

Enough with these clichés popping up again and again

You ask me why I always wrote about a given miss?

Because for the longest time it was all too disturbing to dismiss

And then it continued to an unending and harmful degree!!

Really?! No. But there was a longing to satiate that need

Melodramatic a bit; dark, depressed and dreaming

Just wrote to combat the stresses that were seemingly teaming

So now not a thought about what isn’t and what’s unseen

I’ve found a new soul, if you know what I mean

So where now, you ask, for this sharp-dressed man?

Can’t say for sure or that I even have a plan

Quite honestly I can say it doesn’t even matter

I’m done with the former and embracing the beautiful latter

Checkmate to now being legitimately colligate

And a round of applause for my eventual fate

King me and behold the brimming smile upon my face

Because there’s a place for everything and everything’s in its right place

There’s no longer a thought about what could be, and what’s not

There’s no longer a thought about what isn’t and what ought

My world has taken off; about time if I might say

Enough with the clichés and the boredom of every day

You ask me if I’ll ever again write about those femme fatales?

Well no. I’ve honestly lost the desire to at all

Because it’s been so long that my soul did long

And I’ve finally found what I’ve wanted all along

With a tip of my top hat to a sight so beautifully clear

There’s a sight worth seeing from the view from up here

There’s no longer a thought about whether I can maintain control

I’ve found a new soul… I’ve found a new soul…