Monday, March 30, 2009

...I'm Fine...

Seasick in an ocean, waiting for a lifeboat

…last hope…

Writing just to stay alive, trying to stay afloat

…don’t choke…

Back the tears up that fill the sea I’m drowning in

…can’t swim…

Sink to the bottom and let it all in

…lights dim…

Fight for attention, though I’m the only one here

…no fear…

Lights, camera, distraction, but you’re still here

…disappear…

Try to hide the worry and all the self-doubt

…try it out…

Sink to the bottom and let it all out

…just shout…

Kicked around long enough, wish life would be kind

…rewind…

It’s easier for me to just say, that

…I’m fine…

Saturday, March 28, 2009

Epic Poem Part 3


Destruction breeds creation

It’s the frame of mind he had

Designing and rebuilding

All to fit his master plan


In the first he was just testing

His magnitude of creativity

Breathing life only to end it

This plan just didn’t please


Flora and fauna were nice

Original but bland

And he set out to try again

Shake off the cosmic dust from his hands


In the second it was personal

And a son he did create

Keeping only him alive

When destruction was again fate


Not sure what was wrong with number two

He reflected on it and yet

Decided that again this world wouldn’t do

And inevitably destroyed it


Third time’s the charm

He’d get it right this time

Plants, animals, and that human element

Finally perfection, he was proud of it


And so he set it free

Breathed life and that was it

The occasional hand there to dabble

But mostly left to their fate


Lastly he sent his son

To watch them in disguise

Report on things he might not see

And observe from the creation’s eyes


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And for a while there was peace

Sat from above and enjoyed

Free will danced with fate

And everything was good


But then there came a thought

From his own flesh and blood

“I just feel that though I love them,

I don’t really love them enough.”


At this he was perplexed

What more was there he could do?

He asked his son what he meant

Still a bit confused


“I want to have more say

In how they live their lives

I want to enrich them

And open up their eyes”


Living among them for so long

He began to be like them

Filled with conflicting emotions

All arguing for his undivided attention


Feeling he could achieve more

The son asked to be severed

His love and indifference

Could no longer live together


Fearing he would succumb

To that which was only too human:

Greed, apathy, etc. all of these afraid of

He instead wanted to be a being of pure love


He thought on the matter

And came to a decision

A sinister smile came across him

He would have a little fun


It was done; before him stood two selves

Capable of two different ways of seeing

An elegant man, from now on the lord

And his apathy, now known as the being


Again he sat to revel in his delving

He just watched and laughed a little

While sympathy and apathy

Tangoed and squabbled


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This continued for many ages

The lord trying to heal them

The being trying to numb them

And he controlling all of them


But while he sat and took it all in

A thought began to fester within

He foresaw what he feared worst

He saw what would truly be a first


Looking back on the first of his creations

He began to notice a pattern

You see no matter how it starts

It will always have to end


Since forever, he had all the control

And never seemed to worry

Snap his fingers, it was over

No guilt, he never felt sorry


For the first time he was scared

Feared it wouldn’t go as planned

There was truth in what he thought,

His beginning was vast approaching his end


He was not prepared to let it happen

Though no one ever really is

He was all powerful, creator,

He should be forever destined to live


And so he built an army

To try and quell the coming storm

Perceived to be unbeatable

But ultimately forlorn