Masterpiece

Pencil sketches of someone we can’t find

Keep popping up to mess with our minds

Search high and low, but never discover

The unknown name of that graphite other

Watercolors painted on a canvas of black

Saturate an image your mind can’t get back

Search high and low, but never recover

The forgotten image now lost like the others

Ink blots on a page and a perfect world is seen

“It’s not there, you’re fooled”, is what they tell me

Focus and refocus, but never discover

That the ink misleads me like so many others

Oil based lives on a canvas of mostly water

And it’s no real surprise that we don’t work together

Focus and refocus, but never recover

The love we once had for one another

He looks down and paints His master peace

Do you think He expected it to turn out like this?

A perfect depiction of something He just wanted to love

So how did we stray so far from what He thought of?

Now tell me He still cares, as we stare up and pray

Longing for tomorrow not to end up like today

If you love something, then set it free

But that doesn’t mean ignore it completely

Words on a page that seem to set the stage

The final act can only be seen with age

Search high and low, but never discover

The meaning of something created by another

Bottles of ink, but they can’t say what you think

And in a world of mostly water it’s swim or sink

Search high and low, but never recover

The bottled messages from that distant lover

Photographs of a time when it existed

And we’re left wishing we hadn’t resisted

Focus and refocus, but never discover

Our picture of life taken by another

Pencil sketches of someone we can’t find

Keep popping into our troubled minds

Focus and refocus, but never recover

From this lost feeling that we are under

He looks down and paints His master peace

Do you think He expected it to turn out like this?

A perfect depiction of something He just wanted to love

So how did we stray so far from what He thought of?

Now tell me He still cares, as we stare up and pray

Hoping that things might stop going this way

For love to exist, the wills all had to be free

But I can’t help but feel we’re being ignored completely…

Music Like It Wasn't

She liked her men like she liked her music:

Loud, obnoxious, and left you feeling nauseous

And she could do better, perhaps a heart like his

And she never ceased to remind him of this

It wasn’t what she said, but how she said it

And it wasn’t how she said it, but what she did

And it wasn’t what she did, but when she did it

And it wasn’t how it started, but how it wouldn’t quit

He liked his women like he liked his music:

Moving, rhythmic, to make it almost euphoric

And he could do better, but he didn’t really want to

And he never ceased to be thinking about you

It wasn’t what he said, but how he never said it to her

And it wasn’t how he said it, but I guess it kind of was

And it wasn’t what he did, because he did everything for her

And it wasn’t how it started; it was how they weren’t together

She liked her men like she liked her music:

In her head, almost controlling, but never consoling

And she could do better, perhaps a soul like his

But she could never seem to understand this

It wasn’t what she did, but whom she did it with

And it wasn’t whom she did, but why she did it

And it wasn’t why she did it, but how she didn’t care

And it wasn’t that she didn’t care, but you can’t expect her to always be there

He liked his women like he liked his music:

Worldly, but low key, and absolutely free

And he could do better, perhaps in time he would

And he never ceased to believe that he really could

It wasn’t what he did, but how he always made you remember

And it wasn’t from whom he hid, because that could change whenever

And it wasn’t why he did it, because he did it to everyone the same

And it wasn’t that he didn’t care, it was just the way he played the game

They liked each other but there was never any music

Free flowing, glowing, but they had no way of knowing

And they could do better, though neither really could

But they never ceased to threatened the other that they would

And it wasn’t what was wrong, but why it was wrong

And it wasn’t why it was wrong, but how it had been so long

And it wasn’t really that they hated each other

It was simply that we were never meant to be together

That Special Someone

Something keeps telling me to leave

Something inside that thinks it knows what I need

And if I could go, and just go away

Do you think I should? I think I may

Someone keeps telling me to quit

Someone outside who thinks they know all of it

And if I could stop, and just stop it all

Do you think I should? I think I may heed that call

Everyone keeps telling me what’s right

Everyone from the day, but I’m awake at night

And if I could know, and know it all right now

Do you think I should? I think I may know how

Everything keeps me out of equilibrium

Everything attacks me. LOOK OUT! Here it comes

And if I could fight, and just fight it all

Do you think I should? I think I may need to brawl

No one is telling me what I want to hear

No one can tell me what it is I fear

And if I could hide, and just hide away

Do you think I should? I think I may

Nothing is happening, not for me, nor for you

Nothing will kill me, and it will kill you too

And if we could be empathetic and not so pathetic

Do you think we should? I think we need to do it quick

She keeps repeating, like a voice in my head

She keeps impeding what needs to be said

She keeps defeating all these motives of mine

She keeps telling me that everything will be fine

Something keeps telling me to leave

Something inside that makes it hard to breathe

And if I could inhale, and just inhale with ease

Do you think you’d stay and never leave?

Someone keeps telling me to quit

Someone outside that doesn’t know shit

And if I could quiet, and just quiet it down

Do you think they’d shut up and stop hanging around?

Everyone keeps telling me what’s right

Everyone who can see, while I search for sight

And if I could see, and just see it for what it is

Do you think I’d keep writing any of this?

Everything keeps me out of equilibrium

Everything keeps me spinning until my body’s numb

And if I could stand up, and just stand up and balance

Do you think I could do it? Do I have a chance?

No one is telling me what I want to hear

No one wants to be the one I hold dear

And if I could stay, and just stay with you

Do you think you could stop and stay with me too?

Nothing is happening, not for me, nor for you

Nothing is closer to lies than your truth

And if we could lie, and just lie to be kind

Do you think you could stay here, and ease my mind?

She keeps repeating, like a voice in my head

She keeps impeding what needs to be said

She keeps defeating all these motives of mine

And we keep telling ourselves "It'll happen in due time..."

Also, here's another song. I started composing this back in November of '07 according to my computer, and I'm not sure when I necessarily "finished" it, but I hope you enjoy it.

Leap Frog

Day Dreaming

Just created this in the last day and a half or so. It's the newest one, but if you notice, there are about 42 others before it. First time I've done this kind of thing (putting it online, through a website) so hopefully the link works, and hopefully you enjoy what I've made.

"Day Dreaming"