No Enemies; Just Friends

No enemies, just friends

No lovers, just loose ends

Not nothing, not anything

No knots, just undone string

Rotoscoping horoscopes

And the horror’s locked within our scopes

We’d do anything for a way to simply cope

We keep praying for an ounce of hope

No context, just words

Between two people looking to flirt

My vision’s so clear face down in the dirt

So walk on me ‘cuz it no longer hurts

The heart wants what it wants

But the body still flaunts

What can tease and taunt

What can petrify and haunt

Three more drinks and I’ll be sober

One more time I’ve been worked over

You want me to stay, you want me to go

You want all the things that I’ll never know

So find something thicker than wool

Over my eyes, to pull

It’s going to take more than that to hide

It’s going to take more to keep me outside

I’ll keep walking the sidewalk until it ends

And hold close these so called friends

I’ll keep nursing it all until it mends

While you live comfortably in your world of pretend

One flew over the cuckoo’s nest

And landed in deep with the worst of the best

One more time and you’ll be dubbed a pest

Step up the dubs, until you step like the rest

A head full of words; none of them good

Want to need to wish you would

It’s all well and good when we do what we should

But this Miss has got me misunderstood

No enemies, just friends

No lovers, just loose ends

No words to create or mend

No more. The end.

Hopeful Music

Adagio for Strings

And I’m up thinking about things

The Island Pt. II

And those things happen to be you

Right This Second

I wish that you’d beckoned

One More Time/Aerodynamic

And I just wish it would stick

Move For Me

Why won’t this just be?

I Remember

Wish my heart could dismember

Clutter

Wish my will wouldn’t stutter

Animal Rights

Wish I could sleep tonight

D.A.N.C.E

Hoping something comes for me

Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger

And I can’t wait here any longer

Ghosts ‘n’ Stuff

I think I’ve up and had enough

Black and Gold

Of feeling this overwhelming cold

Clubbed to Death

And I’m sick of holding my breath

New Jack

Waiting for you to come back

Genesis

And I’m through with this…

L's

It’s strongest when there’s no one
It’s closest when they’re gone
It’s telling you all is said and done
It’s that nightmare you can’t outrun
It’ll finish you before you’ve begun

It’s being reduced to only one

-Loneliness
It’s how your heart chases
It’s there when she is
It doesn’t care how it disgraces
It doesn’t need names or faces

It devours and defaces

It finds dignity and erases
-Lust
It’s deeper than you and me
It goes beyond what we both see
It’s unrestricted, genuine, and free
It’s being at peace and happy

It doesn’t run, and doesn’t flee
It’s all these things because it has to be
-Love

Wants, Needs, And The Damage In Between

Got up from the ground

To continue the story

Beating heart in hand

To march through the grim and gory

“I was just wondering

If you’d come along…”

Since you gave me a listen

And you appeared to like my song

Waded through the pessimism

To find you standing in the back

Little did he know…

The deck had been stacked

Knife in hand she turns to leave

As he lies there and slowly bleeds

Not sure if he got what he wanted

But apparently, this is what he needs

It wasn’t moving fast enough

So we traded in our steeds

It wasn’t growing fast enough

So we traded in our seeds

It wasn’t tangled up enough

So we amped up our weeds

And when it was everything we wanted

It became nothing any of us need

A knock at the door

Has me begging for more

And she’d be gone now

Except she’s been here before

Locked in my mind

With no room to expand

If you wanna make God laugh

Then just tell Him what you have planned

A prayer for over there

A wish for none of this

A gesture of something better

But still a Miss I truly miss

So give me one good reason to stay

And I’ll give you one for me to go

Tell me honestly what you think

And I’ll tell you everything I know

Her face lights up at his mention

And then I’m losing her attention

Just another studded example

Of my lack of relational retention

It wasn’t what we stood for

So we traded in our creed

It wasn’t in the way enough

So we decided to further impede

It wasn’t unclear enough

So we decided to mislead

And when it was everything we wanted

It became nothing any of us need

I’m not what you wanted

But I’ll continue to be that Swede

And I’m not on the street

But I’m still being trampled by this stampede

I don’t want a sentiment

That wasn’t intended for me

So take your charming personality

And simply leave me be

Another one down

But then there are more on the horizon

Stuck in the middle of it all

While still searching for that one

If insanity were a hobby

And listlessness a skill

I’d be one-up on everyone else

And the undisputed king of the hill

Take me to a show

And put on a show for me

Convince me that you’re convinced

Of the two of us being “we”

Then pin me down backstage

With the curtains that match the drapes

Let us never have an audience

And simply watch how love escapes

It wasn’t accumulating fast enough

So we stepped up our greed

It wasn’t dying fast enough

So we cut it down and watched it bleed

It wasn’t worth begging for

So we instead decided to plead

And when it was everything we wanted

It became nothing any of us need

Longwinded became the norm

And there was no longer a calm before the storm

We stood there and watched it abashed

But could do nothing as we were turned to ash…

We All Fall Down

My flattery has been flattened

A lack of perseverance per se?

My resolve goes the way of past resolutions

And I can’t find the motivation to do what I say

Ashes to ashes, and I just keep falling down

And what I wouldn’t give to have you around

What drew you in was the friend

And together you grew apart

And we’d have given anything

To never again have broken hearts

Ashes to ashes, as if you were never even really here

Chased off yet again, by an ever-changing fear

Things look better from a distance

So far… so good…

But if we’re not deep, we’re shallow

And couldn’t be more misunderstood

Ashes to ashes, and I keep singing this song

And what I wouldn’t give to not be strung along

What drew you in were the eyes

But you stayed for that little twist

The one where I’d have given anything

Only to again be that masochist

Ashes to ashes and you just up and ran away

And all the while I wrote without anything to say

I can no longer look up,

Locked down is my vision instead

No longer can I dream

I just lay awake in bed

Ashes to ashes, and I just want to forget you

Forget all your words and your beautiful face too

Green eyes and blue goodbyes

Yellow dresses while seeing red

The colorfully impatient patient

Sees little reason to leave his bed

Ashes to ashes; we all fall down

So join me in lying here upon the ground

Here Went Nothing...

Okay…

What to say?

Again and again and still feeling this way?

Walked away into a cloudy drawn out day

Only to come out the other side fighting my dismay

Breather?

Over.

Watched it quietly smolder

Dove into the flames only to grow colder

Now I’m searching for matches that are more than just embers

Burned?

Learned:

That all that’s given isn’t earned

Some times you’re lucky if you’ve discerned

That it’s a matter of time before the tables have turned

Travel?

Unravel,

From my head down to this gravel

Was lucky enough not to get hit by the shrapnel

But I’m still bleeding out, and as for why, I can’t tell

Hearts?

Start

To get so fucked up and torn apart

(Don’t read into those lines, I’m just playing a part

One where I rant and rave for the sake of my art.)

Pessimist?

Defeatist

Because nobody can tell me where the beef is

Sick of being a friend with which to coexist

While I bide my time on your damn waiting list

Sympathy?

Empathy.

And right now I’m strung out on your pity

Eat it up, and then vomit it out for the world to see

The View From Up Here just isn’t what it used to be

Interested?

Bested.

And I’m one stop away from feeling better off dead

It’s a shame that you’ll now be forever in my head

And I didn’t expect this road to lead where it’s led

Agree?

To disagree?

I’m trying hard to believe it’s not just happening to me

Wish I could open your eyes and make you see

That you were the one with which I wanted to be

Therapy?

Soliloquy?

If I had more of an audience I guess it wouldn’t be

I’m not asking for much.  Is that so fucking hard to see?

I just want one, once, who’s got it bad for me

God?

I Applaud

Don’t get involved, just smile and nod

Tie me up in front of a female firing squad

Who will lay me out on the ground like fresh sod

Fate?

Berate.

Because I apparently love to complicate

Just stand still and save the date

All the while hating how long you’ve had to wait

Contemplation…

Information

Would’ve been nice if you’d told me before my excitation

Now I’m dancing to the rhythm of my heart’s palpitations

Trying to swap a “?” for a “!” in my life’s punctuation

Fun?

Done,

With pouring more rhymes into this one

Thought I had someone, to which I wanted to run

Thought, for a moment, that this sweet talk was done

Something?

Lasting?

But now I’m just left with that minor sting

The kind that reminds me I was so close to something

The kind that starts with the notion of “Here goes nothing….”