Waiting

Follow me around
And let me lead you astray
Let's just run from it all
And maybe come back one day

Take my hand and ask me sweetly
Where exactly we are going
And I'll reply so softly
That there's no way of knowing

But then it doesn't really matter
And I've always kind of known
That so long as I'm with you
I know that I am not alone

Then you take off from here in a sprint
And I'll just watch you go
Waiting patiently for your return
I know you'll come back... I know

But you lose yourself out there
And you fly away from me
But I'll wait because I know
You're just trying to be free

But then you don't return
And I'm at a loss for language
I just sit and watch the horizon
For what seems like ages

Longing for the day
That you appear in front of me
Longing for the day
That you want to be with me

And I'll wait here and watch
Because I have nowhere else to be
And I'll wait here and think
Of that face I long to see

And though the years may pass
They will never know
How I've secretly longed for more
And the pain I'll never show

And I'll just wait a little longer
Because that's what true love does?
And if you never come back to me
Then I guess that's how it goes

And while my heart will be broken
Time and time again
I'll wait a little longer
And I'll try to bare the pain

You can pass me off as naive
Or as a man who's lost his head
But I'll sit here and wait
Hoping you haven't been misled

They may say I'm losing focus
But I've just lost what's worth focusing on
Call me crazy because I'm still hoping
That you'll come back when all is said and done

...And I find it hard that life goes on...And I find it hard that no one cares...And I find it hard that I'm impatient...And I find it hard that you're not here...And I find it hard to understand...And I find it hard to just go on...And I find it hard to just give up...And I find it hard to just move on...















And even if you did come back
I can't say that I'd be here
And even if you loved me back
I can't say I'd love you dear

I can't do this anymore
I can't sit while time goes on
Leave me here in my sad state
Leave me here, I think I'm done...

~__________~

Youthful exuberance
Or so I was told
Under a spell
Reveling in what I did behold

Still I can't help it
Missing you every day
I wish it wasn't so
Longing turns to dismay
Every day turns out the same

I can't contain myself
So you'll probably want to go

But please remember this:
I love your smile so
The thought of nothing else
The thought of no one there
Ever wish that you could just
React like you don't care?

So please remember this
When you wonder if I care:
Every time I see your smile
Every time it's worthwhile
Thought you ought to be aware

Questions

What exactly is it,
That you mean to me?
What exactly will it take,
For me to be free?
When will the day come,
When they'll want to come to me?
Why is it every place,
In which I see her face?
Who exactly set the pace,
To this never ending race?

Trying. Waiting. Wishing. Praying.
Finding it hard to continue staying.

Where will I go,
When I don't even know?
Where will you be,
When I come looking for me?
Why isn't it enough,
That I'm simply here?
Why can't I admit,
That I no longer care?

Eying. Trying. Complying. Praying.
Finding it hard to continue staying.

When can I stop asking,
How long will it be?
When will we stop,
Focusing on you and me?
How do I decide?
What do you even see?
What exactly is it,
That you mean to me?

Lying. Denying. Assuming. Praying.
Finding it hard to see why I'm still staying...

Just Another Day

And they think I can’t hear

The words that they say

But they come across quite clear

And it’s just another day

They talk all hushed

And they try to hide their stares

They think that I don’t know

But I’m completely aware

I catch their eyes

And I shake my head

I’ve already heard them all

No originality in what they said

But I just go about my business

Nothing I haven’t experienced

They marvel, like they’re the first

But there isn’t a comment that I’ve missed

And I can guess their questioning

I’m about three steps ahead

Still they walk up shy and ask

Because they know not where they tread

And it begins again…

How tall are you?

Do you get that a lot?

Do you play basketball?

Why the hell not?

How tall is your dad?

How tall is your mom?

Are you still growing?

Or are you almost done?

It would appear that you’ve caught me

On a very good day

And I’ll answer your questions, but first…

…Go away…