Here Went Nothing...

Okay…

What to say?

Again and again and still feeling this way?

Walked away into a cloudy drawn out day

Only to come out the other side fighting my dismay

Breather?

Over.

Watched it quietly smolder

Dove into the flames only to grow colder

Now I’m searching for matches that are more than just embers

Burned?

Learned:

That all that’s given isn’t earned

Some times you’re lucky if you’ve discerned

That it’s a matter of time before the tables have turned

Travel?

Unravel,

From my head down to this gravel

Was lucky enough not to get hit by the shrapnel

But I’m still bleeding out, and as for why, I can’t tell

Hearts?

Start

To get so fucked up and torn apart

(Don’t read into those lines, I’m just playing a part

One where I rant and rave for the sake of my art.)

Pessimist?

Defeatist

Because nobody can tell me where the beef is

Sick of being a friend with which to coexist

While I bide my time on your damn waiting list

Sympathy?

Empathy.

And right now I’m strung out on your pity

Eat it up, and then vomit it out for the world to see

The View From Up Here just isn’t what it used to be

Interested?

Bested.

And I’m one stop away from feeling better off dead

It’s a shame that you’ll now be forever in my head

And I didn’t expect this road to lead where it’s led

Agree?

To disagree?

I’m trying hard to believe it’s not just happening to me

Wish I could open your eyes and make you see

That you were the one with which I wanted to be

Therapy?

Soliloquy?

If I had more of an audience I guess it wouldn’t be

I’m not asking for much.  Is that so fucking hard to see?

I just want one, once, who’s got it bad for me

God?

I Applaud

Don’t get involved, just smile and nod

Tie me up in front of a female firing squad

Who will lay me out on the ground like fresh sod

Fate?

Berate.

Because I apparently love to complicate

Just stand still and save the date

All the while hating how long you’ve had to wait

Contemplation…

Information

Would’ve been nice if you’d told me before my excitation

Now I’m dancing to the rhythm of my heart’s palpitations

Trying to swap a “?” for a “!” in my life’s punctuation

Fun?

Done,

With pouring more rhymes into this one

Thought I had someone, to which I wanted to run

Thought, for a moment, that this sweet talk was done

Something?

Lasting?

But now I’m just left with that minor sting

The kind that reminds me I was so close to something

The kind that starts with the notion of “Here goes nothing….”