Instigation of Another Mess

Couldn’t quite catch my breath

But I kept sprinting nonetheless

I tried to count on one hand how much time had elapsed

But my body just wanted to collapse

I kept stumbling over my pinky finger

As I realized it was still sworn to her

Headlights would have to guide me home now

As my soul had clearly lost the know how

In an instant I’m in a field of broken goals

And I walk along through their tattered mesh

I wonder why I’m paying all of life’s tolls

While browsing for a way to refresh

I’m there. I’m here. I’m walking away

But their banter still bothers me regardless

I wonder what it is that I have to say

To get me into another mess

I sit here and stare at a blank slate

I sit here and determine my plan of attack

I sit here and contemplate my fate

I sit here and wonder why you came back

In an instant I’m inside and surrounded

And try as I may I can’t get out

I wonder why these tolls are being compounded

While trying not to scream and shout

I’m there. I’m here; to me that much is clear

But the silence still bothers me regardless

I wonder what it is I have to fear

To get me into another mess

Couldn’t quite catch my breath

But I kept sprinting nonetheless

I tried to count on one hand how much time had elapsed

But my body just wanted to collapse

I kept stumbling over my pinky finger

As I realized it was still sworn to her

Headlights would have to guide me home now

As my soul had clearly lost the know how

In an instant I’m burning bridges

And I walk along coughing on the smoke

I wonder why life wants to be so ridged

I guess it’s another incomprehensible joke

I’m there. I’m here. But I don’t want to be

And avoidance seems pleasant regardless

I wonder what is required of me

To get me into another mess

I sit here among the bright-eyed and dead inside

I sit here and ignore my plan of attack

I sit here and wish that I could just hide

I sit here and wonder why you came back

In an instant the room spins and I’m gone

Safely coddled by deluded illusions

I wonder what it is that I must have done

To not have arrived at their same conclusions

I’m here. I’m there. I’m here. You’re where?

No time but I’m searching regardless

I wonder how much I have to care

To get me into another mess

Couldn’t quite catch my breath

But I kept sprinting nonetheless

I tried to count on one hand how much time had elapsed

But my body just wanted to collapse

I kept stumbling over my pinky finger

As I realized it was still sworn to her

Headlights would have to guide me home now

As my soul had clearly lost the know how