Would You Follow Me?

Would you follow me
Into the cold abyss
And keep me warm
With a single kiss?

Would you follow me
Into the darkest night
And bring me light
With just your sight?

Would you follow me
To the deepest depths
And help me breathe
With a single word of breath?

Would you follow me
To the end of this land
And keep me company
With the touch of your hand?

Would you follow me
Through the toils of this machine
And keep me sane
With your eyes so green

Would you follow me
Just to say you were there
And keep my heart beating
Knowing you still care?

Would you follow me
Just to follow me
So that I never have to leave
What is the epitome of true beauty?

Would you follow me?

A Night At 327

So I started falling asleep

And the thoughts started pouring in

They started creating dreams

And they tried to lull me in

And then I started dreaming

And the answers came to me

They filled my head with assurance

Made me feel so light and free

I had no cares or worries

It all made perfect sense

No reason to live my life in fear

No reason to live life on the fence

But then something stirred my slumber

Probably the drier or the washer

And I was awake and confused

The answers had all disappeared

The more I tried to remember

The more they succeeded at escaping

My dreams of making it all work

Were quickly disintegrating

With the loss of what to do

My well being fell to dismay

I just wish I could remember

And I wish I had never waked

Now I long for sleep each night

To remember what to do

To understand my life

To get closer to you…

My To-Do List

I’ve finished my to-do list

And it’s only the first

And I ask myself: Am I getting better at this,

Or are they all just getting worse?

All the motivation in the world

Wouldn’t be enough to get that girl

And do you think you could engineer,

A way to get and keep her here?

Lackluster and unable to muster

Up the courage to say what needs to be said

No worries, in no hurry

When the worst I could be is dead

I’m on the wrong side of the road

Dodging traffic as it comes

There’s an accident waiting to happen

Passing hitchhikers without thumbs

Do you have the ingredients sir,

To satiate these greedy gluttons?

Their cups runneth over with demand

Watch it pop their straining buttons

Could you walk up to a passerby,

And show her what you’re made of?

Steal her breath, and sweep her off her feet

Lock eyes and tell her you’re in love?

Every time I see that girl

I forget about this world

And I’m engineering my own way

To get her here, and make her stay

Life never seems to slow down

Enough for me to catch up

Hamsters on wheels make more progress

And everything I do is never enough.

I digress to clichés once again

And I’m wondering how this one will end?

When what I want can’t be given to me

And trying to take it seems to offend

With lives that revolve around screens

TVs, PCs, and cellular

Is it any wonder that we decide,

To continue screening who we really are?

If your dreams became reality

Could you fall asleep at night?

And when life’s one big perception,

How can we know what’s black and what’s white?

Judging by your clothes

It was cold out when you awoke

Well you can take them off now

And warm up to this cruel joke

Judging by your eyes

I see this comes as no surprise

That you choose to misinterpret

Your timely demise

A rose that stands to bury you

By any other name than “perfection”

Smell the scent, tolerate the thorns,

And just ignore your misdirection

It’s half past tomorrow

And the clock strikes a nerve

Time is truly running out

Trying to get what you deserve

Your eyes aren’t resting; they’re closed

And that’s why it really hurts

Open them up before your buffet

Becomes a line of just desserts

I’ve finished my to-do list

And it’s still only the first

And I ask myself: Am I getting better at this,

Or are they all just getting worse?

Don't Jinx It

Driving through Claremont

Past memories that still haunt

That morning I came back for my car

Because I wanted to be where you were

Walking through the architecture

As I wished it would be sure

Keep it a secret and just pray

That it keeps going this way

I keep the information to one

Because they’d all ruin the fun

Separate work from play

But make eyes along the way

Don’t jinx it now and just stay sound

I can’t believe what I have found

Driving through Pomona

And I feel like I don’t know ya

That morning I snuck you out

I thought I had it all figured out

Thinking through my thoughts

It was clear that I did not

Kept it a secret and just prayed

Wasn’t enough and edges felt frayed

I told the information to anyone

Someone, no one, whoever would listen

Business was finding a simple pleasure

And I couldn’t forget the architecture

Don’t jinx it now and just stay sound

Still not sure why she stuck around

Driving through Long Beach

And these arms aren’t long enough to reach

That morning I woke up wishing

That you’d have allowed me to keep staying

Walking through architecture

I questioned whether I was sure

Secrets secrets are no fun

Something’s making me want to run

No once cares about the information

And I’m jealous of those in formation

All work and no play makes me want you more

And I’d keep my eyes on you, until they got sore

Don’t jinx it now and just stay sound

Don’t think I’ll forget what I have found

Driving through San Diego

And I wish I knew where to go

That morning I didn’t want to wake up

Because you weren’t there, just stop

Waiting on and check the horizon

It isn’t always said and done

Keeping it secret is my only pleasure

And I miss walking through architecture

The information starts losing meaning

And I miss that old familiar feeling

Work sucks and play forgets

Longing to make eyes, still no regrets

Don’t jinx it now and just stay sound

You still have yet to hit the ground

Driving through San Francisco

And I clearly don’t know where to go

This morning I was set free

Drove up the coast, you see

Admiring the architecture at a stoplight

I looked left for an ocean sight

Do you want to know a secret?

I’m sure you do, but not yet

Information can’t tell you what I’m thinking

And you probably think that I’ve been drinking

Ditched work and took in some play

Don’t think we’ll come back for several days

Don’t jinx it now and just stay sound

You know I love having you around…

Losing Fatih (Parts 1 & 2)

Their lies

Their eyes

Their otherwise successful tries

Each time I die

A little inside

When I go a night

Without your sight

Can you understand?

What it means to me?

To be set free and not see,

What I’m not meant to see?

Take it from me,

Seeing isn’t what it’s cracked up to be.

Demands

Cold hands

And otherwise vacant land

Each time I die

A little inside

When I leave your sight

On a cold night

Can you walk this street,

With me, sweeping your feet?

Mind my landmines

And keep to my beat?

Take it from me,

You laugh, but it’s no easy feat

To sleep

Dreams creep

With otherwise silent weeps

Each time I die

A little inside

When I have to lie

To have you by my side

____________________

Another day passes, where I’m left apart from the masses.

Could somebody please tell me, what I am doing?

There’s a cold and lonely beanie on the ground

And I’m here wishing that you were around

I can’t help but turn up my music’s sound

And pretend that no one knows what I have found

Another day passes, where I’m left apart from the masses.

And I would complain, if everyone weren’t sick of hearing it again.

There are thousands of miles to my destination

And I’m here wishing life could go on vacation

I can’t help but get no satisfaction

And I pretend that no one knows about my decisions

Another day passes, where I’m left apart from the masses.

Could someone please declare that life is once again fair?

There are thousands of lakes in which no one wants to swim

And I think I’d like to jump in on a stupid whim

I can’t help but stay on the surface and just skim

And pretend that while not submerged, I’m still prim

Another day passes, where I’m left apart from the masses.

Could someone please, my purpose restore, and tell me what I'm doing this for?

Inspiration

It’s funny where inspiration will hit you

Like right this moment I thought I’d write

It’s funny what she could do to you

Like right this moment inspiration I sight

She’s across the way

Both of us have nothing to say

But oddly enough

She’s making my day

I’m writing this up

All the while using her

Her image, her motivation

Only wishing that I was there

And yet if I was I don’t think it would help

Because as I sit here, I’m scratching my scalp

Like what would I say, to someone so sweet?

I can only sit here and hope we one day meet

It’s funny where inspiration will hit you

Like right this moment I thought I’d write

It’s funny what she could do to you

Like right this moment I’d like to see her tonight

I look from ledge to window

I look from table to face

And every time I look at her

Her eyes are in the same place

She looks to me when she thinks I don’t see

I look to her, then quickly away when she spies

She looks to me when she knows I’m looking

A cat and mouse game played with eyes

I’m not joking with you

She’s about fifteen feet from me

Sitting, watching, tantalizing

I can only hope she thinks the same of me

I would talk to her if I had the guts

And yet if I did I’m afraid it would end the fun

Sitting, watching, wishing we both had the force

Instead we sit patiently each other trying to coerce

It’s funny where inspiration will hit you

Like right this moment I thought I would write

It’s funny how people in this library study me

I think I’ll dream of her tonight…

I Wish This Made Sense

And it’s quiet

Too quiet for this riot

And I’m surprised

That I can’t see through closed eyelids

And it must be a trap

Can’t wait for her to attack

Smack-dab in the middle of a crossfire

Just trying to get back

Oh no!

Another low blow

I guess it just goes to show

That you never really know

How it will go

Oh no! She got free!
And she’s now comin’ after me!

After me with more than a touch of crazy

Watch her, this you’re gonna wanna see.

And you don’t want me for me

You want something that isn’t mine

And if you could see what I am

Then you would see, you couldn’t live without me

I can’t do this anymore

You can’t do this anymore

Not when it feels like a chore

Not when we just want more

So run away

Just pack your bags

And I’m not surprised

That I don’t see an escape

So run amok

Because I don’t give a fuck

Never have, always will

Be perfectly stuck

Come around again

And feel my pain

Please don’t give a shit

But don’t let it happen again

You should focus your eyes

On things that tantalize

Paramount to loving you

It’s all lies, it’s all lies

And you don’t want her for her

You want something that isn’t there

And if you could see what she is

Then you would see you couldn’t live without her

I can’t do this anymore

Not when it feels like a chore

Not when there aren’t ideas in store

I can’t do this anymore

Something died

And I lost my pride

Take it all in stride

Yeah, I just might

Tell me: What do you want?

What do you get out of it?

Because right now it seems

Like I’m being fed bullshit

And I’d be happy to eat it up

If I thought it was enough

But lately I can’t help feeling

That my head ought not to be reeling

My time? You’re stealing

My heart? You’re keeping

Locked up in a box

That should be mine to lock

But instead I’m here

Unable to talk

Maybe tomorrow we’ll die

Without our piece of the pie

Maybe today we’ll see

Without our supposed needs

Maybe yesterday we’ll speak

Without our fear of the peak

Maybe in a week

I’ll want again to seek

Déjà vu

Could never do this to you

Wish I could turn my head around

And always see you

But it just doesn’t exist

And I think I knew

Maybe this is why

I’m so damn pissed

In touch with crazy

If in touch means

She no longer talks to me

I miss those days, see

Where I was free

Younger than 13

And it never meant

What it now means

And you don’t want me for me

You want something that isn’t mine

And if you could see what I am

Then you would see, you couldn’t live without me

I’m on my way out

Because you don’t want this from me

I’ll grow up one day I swear

And by then you’ll see

That you can live without me…

Snow Angel

I watch them through their tinted glass

As their lives progress and come to pass

I watch them through my one-way mirror

Where they can’t see me, can’t know my fear

Bury me here, right here in the snow

And let me watch the whiteness grow

Let my body grow cold until it is warm

Bury me here, leave your footprints and go

It’s comin’ down the mountain, gonna kill us all

When summers used to spring now winters can only fall

The flakes accumulate, but the real snow has yet to fall

Longing to warm up by your fire, longing for you to call

Their calm demeanors can’t help them tolerate

The judging eyes of those who seek to decimate

It all makes no sense and the questions begin to grow

Is it any surprise that most of us are questioning our fates?

Bury me here, right here in the snow

And let me watch the whiteness grow

Let my body grow cold until it is warm

Until I’ve found my angel of the snow

From east to west, trial, error and just test

Grow that hate, commiserate, and try to be the best
I don’t, nor have I ever, wanted to hear what they jest

Shut down, shut up, don’t restart just standby like the rest

Can you tell your friends from all of your enemies?

It’s as if no one cares, and everyone just aims to tease

You can make time into money but still never appease

The world may turn, but not fast enough to fling off the sleaze

So bury me here, right here in the snow

And let me watch the whiteness grow

Let my body grow cold until it is warmed

By the gentle soul, of my snow angel

Crazy

Turn it on

And it makes me crazy

Turn it off

And I’d do anything for it, believe me

Just take off a little

But not enough to get lazy

Just take a chance

And tell me we’re crazy

Everyone has a bit in them

Some just more than others

Every one I see would be perfect

But none of them perfect lovers

Turn it on

And it leaves me empty

Turn it off

And I’d do anything for it, believe me

Just take away the stage

But not enough to act naturally

Just take away the page

And tell me we’re crazy

Everyone has a bit in them

Some just more than others

Every one I see is beautiful

But none of them beautiful lovers

Turn it on

And you never see

Turn it off

And I’d do anything for it, believe me

Just take away the love

But not enough to be ugly

Just take away all of the above

And tell me we’re crazy

Everyone has a bit in them

Some just more than others

Every one I see is haunting

But none of them haunted lovers

How can I do this to myself?

As the red flows from bottle to body

How can I do this to you?

As the white flows from the bottle to body

How can they do this to each other?

As the blue flows from body to floor

How can I do this to myself?

I ask myself, and then ask for more.

Turn it on

And it makes me crazy

Turn it off

And I’d do anything for it, believe me

Just turn it off

Because you’re killing me

Just turn it on

And tell me we’re crazy