Memory Fades

She found me standing on a lake of ice

And suddenly I knew that she was there

I warmed up to a thought I thought was nice

As it was clear she really did care

Just warm enough to make the ice melt

Just striking enough to make my heart stir

Graciously enjoying the cards I was dealt

Thankfully praising the appearance of her

She watched as I sank into a sea of tears

And suddenly I knew I’d been misled

I couldn’t understand how she could laugh at my fears

And it was then that I wished she were dead

Just warm enough to dry my eyes

Just following me as a haunting blur

Wishing for one more spontaneous surprise

Frantically cursing the appearance of her

She has never to this day, reappeared

And suddenly I know that she never will

I can’t be accountable for the worst I’ve feared

As I’m still waiting for everything to hold still

Just warm enough to make me more jaded

Just hoping that this all won’t reoccur

Patiently waiting for this memory to have faded

Longingly searching for the appearance of another…