Ashes

Nickeled and knocked out

Bloodied and blocked off

Locked in to being locked out

Nicked but still can’t knock it off

A knack that isn’t shocking

Cocked but no one’s knocking

Stocked but no one’s flocking

Shocked that I’m still talking

Took while no one was looking

Ate what no one was cooking

Shook with no reason to be shaking

Taken by what isn’t mine for the taking

Thousands of islands

And no land upon which to stand

A demand to understand

Handed things that weren’t planned

Tanned faces that ought be banned

Randomness that I hope gets canned

Stand-up people I cannot stand

“Man up and just take her hand!”

Telling tales of the torn tall

Ashes… ashes… we all fall

Shook with no reason to be shaken

Looked her in the eyes and was instantly taken

Rhymes that continue to chime

Climb out of my head primed

Dimed by all the pantomimes

Slime just searching for the sublime

Find limelight that blinds the mind

Mime my emotion to earn a dime

I’m hiding out from all their crimes

I’m hoping things will tell in time

Nonsense rolls like common sense

Dispenses me with great finesse

Shaken, taken, and utterly bereft of defense

Praying this suspense will soon condense

I do declare that it’s all hot air

Impaired by smooth liquid despair

Midair upon a wing and a prayer

Prepared to go most anywhere

Solitary until someone cares

Wary of a likely love affair

Ensnared by that one’s debonair

Aware that I must take it there

Shook with a reason to be shaken

Looked her in the eyes and was instantly taken

I recall that all this is simply stalling

Ashes… ashes… And I think I’ve fallen...

Ever Again

I’m stuck in an area covered by ashes of steel

And I wonder if I’ll ever again be able to feel

I’m travelling a land of gods, hicks and hooves

And I wonder if I’ll ever again be able to move

I’m losing myself, but finding an old friend again

And I wonder if I’ll ever again remember then

I’m moving forward toward a roller coaster

And I wonder if I’ll ever again be able to cause a stir

I’m running in a race that she’s already won

And I wonder if I’ll ever again find the one

I’m feeling a sense of destroying delight

And I wonder if I’ll ever again sleep for a night

I’m stuck in an area covered by ashes of steel

And I wonder if I’ll ever again be able to feel

I’m traveling a land of gods, hicks and hooves

And I wonder if I’ll ever again be able to move

I’m listening to the flowers, while staring at wall

And I wonder if I’ll ever again be able to fall

I’m gazing at the stars that can no longer direct

And I wonder if I’ll ever again have that affect

I’m falling in the open while the future closes in

And I wonder if I’ll ever again be able to win

I’m writing in the dark with only a neon glow

And I wonder if I’ll ever again completely know

I’m stuck in an area covered by ashes of steel

And I wonder if I’ll ever again be able to feel

I’m traveling a land of gods, hicks and hooves

And I wonder if I’ll ever again be able to move

I’m staying up late with the memories I keep

And I wonder if I’ll ever again be able to sleep

I’m fading out white noise and listening to nothing

And I wonder if I’ll ever again find that something

I’m immortalizing memories with pen and paper

And I wonder if I’ll ever again forget her

I’m ending it on my terms before it’s even begun

And I wonder if I’ll ever again be seeing that one

I’m stuck in an area covered by ashes of steel

And I wonder if I’ll ever again be able to feel

I’m traveling in a land of gods, hicks and hooves

And I wonder if I’ll ever again be able to move

I’m avoiding the truth so that I can stay miserable

And I wonder if I’ll ever again be stable

I’m longing for love, and hoping for happiness

And I wonder if I’ll ever again find a beautiful mess

I’m looking to the future, and finding the past

And I wonder if I’ll ever again make it last

I’m searching the stars and combing the land

And I wonder if I’ll ever again hold that hand

I’m stuck in an area covered by ashes of steele

And I wonder if I’ll ever again be able to feel

I’m traveling in a land of gods, hicks and hooves

And I wonder if I’ll ever again be able to move…

Sunken Driving

White eyes out of the dark that haunt with their gaze
While rust colored leaves paint the streets like a haze
Just trying to find what I'm searching for these days
Lost in lust trying to relinquish old ways


Driving around trying to find that sensation
Sensing it's over now as I lose motivation
Rain pouring down while the roads get slick
And all through the night I've got a love I can't kick


Memories of you, and her, and the other
And even the one who wanted another
All from a time I can't seem to escape
All in my mind together I scrap


Driving through puddles I wish were oceans
Hoping to drown my car in one motion
Looked into the future where I longed to be
And realized I can no longer picture it for me


The moon fades to black as I sip my drink
I flood and imbibe because I'm too down to think
Just pick me up where I last left off
And point me in a direction where I won't hear them scoff


Tired and delirious; about ready to collapse
I'm sick of falling into their disarming traps
Open my eyes to see nothing at all
Just a broken ambition while tears start to fall


Will I wake up tomorrow and find someone to meet?
Will I wake up tomorrow and find my feet?
Has tomorrow come and gone, before I have time to think?
Have I suddenly found myself with too much to drink?


Here's where I'd take the first line and repeat
And make just enough changes that are seemingly discrete
But instead tonight, while my sunkenness is thriving
I'll end it here and just continue on driving....

I Give Up

The distance grows between the haves and have nots

And I understand your apathy seeing as you already have a spot

But just for a minute, climb off your high steed

And try giving a shit about what it is I see

Your politics are causing me quite a stir

And I can’t determine when you lost you character

It’s clear to me you no longer care

While you inhale, pop another, and give your screens a stare

Information overload hell bent on my destruction

So excuse me if I don’t want to hear your backhanded instruction

I realize it’s time for us all to grow up

But with your attitude lately, enough’s enough

Don’t pass your problems off to me instead

Because you’re incapable of living inside your own head

It’s not my fault sobriety eludes you

And it’s not my fault that I don’t always know what to do

With all of this said I know you’ll never listen or care

So I’ll just leave you to wallow in your crazed despair

Wordplay

Strive for productive innocence
But in a sense I'm so unproductive
Your wait may feel immense
But that's no reason to be destructive
It may be the general consensus
To generally con the senses
Your past forgot your future
And now your present tenses


Wordplay for the worst
While the worst throw up their words
Listening to the mutes
While the deaf tell what they've heard


You may have the sense to be common
But you still lack common sense
Adequately in constant offense
Is your inadequate defense
At best you'll be accepted
At worst you'll find rejection
Attentive to their wants,
But only when they want to give you attention


Wordplay for the best
While the best hold their tongues
Regressing to progression
As our old selves search for our young ones


It's no secret that we're secretive
But we're all trying to hide in the sun
It's no wonder that you're wonderful
But I'm not fully convinced you're the one
I say I'm looking for innocence
But in a sense I'm still looking for what to say
And I'll keep playing with these words
If these words just want to play


Wordplay for the worst
While at worst they'll ignore my words
Listening to the mutes
While the deaf tell me what they've heard

Valentine

Pen to paper; only to realize I hate her

Word to voice; but I don’t do it by choice

I confess I write best when I’m good and depressed

And I’d be blessed to have that beautiful mess

Words that others would call conversation

Leave my heartbeat with no chance of cessation

Sit there and say those words we long to hear

Sit here staring blind wishing you would soon appear

Ambition coerces those trapped by unknown forces

But doesn’t provide the motivation to run down those wild horses

Feelings of regret, of which you can bet

Will leave you clutching losing tickets in a cold sweat

A love of drugs that keeps the drugs lovin’ you

A want for release that you now can’t undo

Just a bunch of puppies that wanna fuck like rabbits

Why not kick it while we can? Since we can’t kick the habit

A length of leg and miles of style

But God forbid she ever stop and smile

Attack with the rack and then leave you behind

She’s fasting forward while they all wish they could rewind

People watching loses its sex appeal

And we start longing for someone to feel

I may be paranoid, but not an android

Just another piner trying to fill that minor void

Get up from a day just like any other day

To leave us ogling your sway, sauntering away

And no one even has to out rightly say

That given the chance they’d sure as hell play

A quick check of the shoes will tell you what you stand to lose

But you’ll still choose the one with issues

Drama’s the true spice of life

And your desire for it’s so thick you could cut it with a knife

So back to a night absent of your sight

Back to a fight that just isn’t quite right

Back to a day, for which we all prayed

Would lead to a night that would never fade

For the love of blond! I just want a brunette!

Red headed to a mess that I won’t soon forget

Color me lusting, for that damn pollution

But I’m out of ideas; so what’s your solution?

Pen to paper; only to realize I love her

Word to voice; and I’m doing it by choice

I confess I wrote this knowing not what to say

Here’s to the one still getting away, happy Valentines Day

Delusional Music

One of these days I’ll listen away

Listlessly wade through the passing days

Clear some room and please make way

As I fall completely into dismay

One of these days the music will take me

Draw me in loudly; then quietly break me

Deafen me softly and swiftly unmake me

All while repeating its chorus so sweetly

One of these days I’ll disappear into sound

Lost in a time with no beat to be found

Drifting away, never coming back to ground

Change my signature in a bar where I’m no longer around

One of these days the tempo will flow

Dance with me madly; and never let go

Pick up speed and then leave me in the throes

Of something far beyond allegrissimo

One of these days I’ll never return

I’ll listen myself away and maybe I’ll learn

That the music of this world isn’t mine to discern

The track’s stuck on repeat until we’re all ready to adjourn…